Ahhh, its monday again

WEll, the weekend has flown by and we are back to lazy monday! It seems to be the one day Elliott and I have to sloth about...well, not sloth, Elliott is no where near slothing! We have already read 3 books and done 2 levels of reading Eggs...I have now got him nice and quietly having morning tea and watching play school...while i sit for a moment!

The tonics are still making me feel lousy...so i called Michael and had a whinge lol. He thinks it could be my body reacting (i knew he would see it as good news grrr) but agrees that I can not be stuffed for the rest of the day so I have to take them all seperately today and find out if it is 1 in particular.

If it is the silica...its my body rejecting it because of me being unhappy...hmmm...I have discussed this dilemma before!

If it is the fertility tonic it is better news..because it means it is repairing the damage done to my system by the fertility drugs I took during IUI.

I'll experiment on myself today and see what happens.

On other news...went to a party yesterday and had a great time mainly. Both Mark and I find it hard to socialise at the moment...when surrounded by food we can not eat and alcohol we can not drink...it sort of makes it difficult to find some common ground. And, of course, there was the pregnant person i was just not expecting. I must admit, i did recoil a little when i found out, i didn't mean too...it just touches on my weakness atm. This girl is lovely, i have met her quite a few times. Was the last thing i expected...cause she had baby #1 just as i met her...when we started ttc...so now she is 20 weeks pregnant with #2. I did manage to pull myself together and not run away and made sure i went back to talk to her (but kept it food related) because its not her fault i feel so vulnerable and exposed around pregnant people.

I have been dubbed the baking queen by a few of my friends now...and i sort of like it. It is moving on from my years as the dancing queen heehee! It is certainly a name i can live with.

WEll, on to try my tonics and see which ones make me feel like dirt...i'll report back tomorrow...fingers crossed its the fertility one!